realize

it took a small argument for us to realize how much we love each other. we’ve been together for less than 2 months. its a very new relationship yet it feels like a year aleady but we’re still getting to know each other’ personalities and understanding our individual differences. i miss him terribly. going home for the holidays is even more exciting knowing that we’ll be able to spend time together. its getting to know the family as well hehe. he actually met my mom already. and so far he’s ok with mama’s standards. basta daw hindi ako paiiyakin ok sa kanya. na trauma din ata si mama with what i’ve been through. but that’s all in the past now. it’s been a learning experience. life has moved on for both of us. a few days from now it’ll be a new year again. i’m hoping the coming year’s gonna be more kind with me in terms of my personal life. i’m kinda wishing for 2 things also. whichever God answers i’ll be most happy.

missing you

i came close to tears as i watched him go down the stairs of my apartment building. he was in a hurry again to catch his plane home that early morning. he came to see me last weekend. it was also in time for his 33rd bday. he got quite surprised when i came into the room with a cake at exactly midnight and on the day of his bday we celebrated at home with a simple dinner that i prepared for him. no matter how i assure myself though that i'd be ok that i won't be seeing him again for weeks, i still feel the loneliness whenever he leaves. we've been keeping our communication lines open as in literally. besides email and texts, we make it a point to call each other everyday. many people say that long distance relationships don't work but i'm positive that ours will

what's up with me

it's been a while since i last made a post in either of my 3 blogs. got kinda busy these past months. i just came from bohol. hannah and lem got married last nov. 28 in bohol beach club in panglao island. it's a beautiful resort compared to where we stayed haha. they had a beautiful wedding along the beach. hannah was very pretty and she was crying all throughout. she was crying while she was walking to the altar, saying her vows, thanking her parents etc. which made us cry too. the party was even more fun coz we danced till 10pm. jill, liz, vani, rafi & i were actually the last people dancing with the live band. it was such a nice experience and ofcourse we had our city tour and the dolphin watching the following day. i wasn't really feeling well even before we flew to tagbilaran but fortunately i managed to enjoy and do all the wedding preps despite my colds and fever. too bad cp wasn't able to come with us. i really missed him there. its ok though coz he's coming over this weekend to visit me again and to spend his bday with me (naks sweet!) and we'll be celebrating my birthday in feb in coron palawan yey!!!!! i'm getting kinda used to this long distance relationship somehow :)

a sweet life

things are finally coming into the right place and i've got so many things to be thankful for these days. at the moment i don't want to talk about it yet (though some of my closest friends know about it already hehe i can't keep my mouth shut kasi) coz it might pre-empt anything. but i'll talk about it soon when the right time comes. :)

busy

its my assistant's bday today. i surprised her with a birthday cake when she came in. wala lang i like doing that for people. i'm thankful to her for many things. she's one of those persons whom i can share my most dark secrets with hehe and i trust her that she won't tell it to anyone else.she has kept my back many times too. so happy birthday abi! my best wishes mare.

its gonna be a busy weekend for me especially on sunday. i'll be attending Vada Cruzita's, abi's youngest daughter's, christening. then i'll go to hannah's house in marikina with vani to help her out in her wedding invitations.

my mind has been pre-occupied for the last few days too. i've been thinking about this person again, my decisions, relationships..but come what may. i'll just live each day as it comes and i'll be where and what makes me happy.

friendships

according to one of my favorite hollywood actresses, gwyneth paltrow, "the best way to mend a broken heart is time and girlfriends." very true, right?

i have the pleasure of meeting and establishing real relationships with my girlfriends. and its such a good feeling that when you're down there are people who will lend their ears and listen to your problems and also share laughs with during good times. real friends are hard to find so when you find it, just like love, treasure it and never let go.

unrequited love

for ...

i've known you for a long time but we were never that close. i didn't give you my number that's why i got quite suprised when you gave me a call one day. we made ocassional communications through text since then but it was nothing but mere catching up with whats happening in our lives. but we communicated more often when both our relationships ended. i don't know if you realize that i see you more than a friend now. I hope you realize that it matters to me that you respond if i text you; that it makes my day if out-of-the blue you text me with a hello, kmusta k n? i don't want to raise my hopes that you see me more of a friend too coz i'm afraid to get hurt. so don't give me the wrong signals when all you need is a friend who will listen to your problems with your ex gf. im aware of your feelings for her and as i've told you if you still love her, make an effort to win her back. i'm hurting but that's what love is about, making sacrifices.

singles night out

tue night, sept 30, eve of a holiday...

my highschool friends becky, che, shelley, rhea rose, winks and i agreed to meet in metrowalk. i had a report that day in my class so i have to wait til 8pm before i could leave. i guess everyone's excited kasi we last saw each other months ago pa ata or even a year for some. true enough we were like so happy to see each other and the chika was never ending. winks pala was not able to come, ang daya! we had our dinner at steak plus. we learned that becky & rhea last saw each other 11 years ago pa! which is so ironic kasi we're all working here lang in manila. sabi ko nga so it seems we should do this every month haha!

ang pulutan ng chika ano pa, lovelife! we're all single na pala! so indeed its a singles night out. syempre ako unang tinanong. walang lusot i have to make chika (sorry coñotic :)) we stayed in steak plus til 12 and we had to find another venue. everyone was not in the mood to drink or for coffee so we ended up in iceberg. ako ata nag suggest haha! chika ulit about everything. and we talked about our planned trip for palawan in dec. everyone's excited kasi its our first out of town trip. too bad nga lang we learned the next day when raffy and rain was about to book us na tapos na pala ang promo fare. hayy sobrang sayang but we're having a plan B. siguro it'll be subic or batanes nalang. becky is pushing for batanes. my itinerary na nga daw siya hehe. well i hope it'll push through. we didn't realize how much we missed each others company till nagkitakita kami. so c u girls next time!

can't help it

sorry girls. :) i just can't help not to repost this. i had a big laugh on this...

The Man Rules­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­

At last a guy has taken the time to write all of this down.

Finally , the guys' side of the story.( I must admit, it's pretty good.) We always hear ' the rules' From the female side.

Now here are the rules from the male side.
These are our rules!Please note.. these are all numbered '1 ' ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.We need it up, you need it down.You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides.Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work!Strong hints do not work!Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both.If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched.We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say 'nothing,' We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really .

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

art & your rights

thank you to the students and faculty of Feati University School of Fine Arts and the UP College of Fine Arts and to all the guests and speakers who attended our forum yesterday! you guys made the activity a success. we hope that in the near future we'll be able to achieve our ultimate goal for holding this forum and the other series of symposia that IPO will be holding which is for you visual artists to assert your rights on intellectual property and ultimately to set up a collecting society for visual artists!

TGIF

it's friday. i don't have a scheduled gimik so i thought of passing by the mall but i went straight home instead. i got a text from a friend when i got home that he was in trellis kalayaan and was asking me to come. i beg off coz its a little late and that place is too far from me even if i take a cab. too bad i was hoping to get a little drink that night too.next time friend.
good thing though i was able to catch an inspiring episode from Oprah. the topic was on healing oneself from bad experiences. the secret they say has never really been a secret at all. they call it the law of attraction. its basically having a positive outlook about things so positive things will come back to you coz what you actually give out in the universe or in life will eventually come back to you. they also said that its good to give affirmations to yourself. so practice looking at yourself in the mirror every morning and say good things about yourself like "you're beautiful" or "hey there goodlooking". sounds insane maybe but it'll help rather than saying "you're a loser" or "i hate you you're so fat blah blah".
after watching the episode i actually stood in front of my mirror and spoke to myself. then i had a flashback about the things that happened to me and what i'd like to do with them and pictured myself in the future. after almost a year i realized i haven't really shrugged off my system everything that needs to be outdone in my life. i haven't really completely forgiven and forgotten those people who hurt me one way or the other. there are still excess baggages thats been keeping me from completely moving on in my life.
they say that healing is a process. maybe i haven't really completely healed but i'm going there.

the last time...hopefully

my friend, gia, gave me a copy of this song and since then i've kept playing it in my celphone. i can relate daw kasi. here's the lyrics of the song,

the last time

by eric benet

the first time i fell inlove was long ago

i didn't know how to give my love at all.

the next time i settled for what felt so close

but without romance, you're never gone fall.

After everything i've learned

now it's finally my turn

this is the last time i'll fall in love.

the first time we walked that starry sky

there was a moment when everything was clear

i didn't need to ask or even wonder why, because each question is answered when you're near.

and i'm wise enough to know when a miracle unfolds, this is the last time i'll fall in love.

now don't hold back, just let me know

could i be moving much too fast or way too slow

'cause all of my life, i've waited for this day

to find that once in a lifetime, this is it, i'll never be the same

you'll never know what it's taken me to say these words

and now that i've said them, they could never be enough

as far as i can see, there's only you and only me

this is the last time i'll fall in love

last time i'll fall in love

the last time i'll fall in love.

Forum on Intellectual Property Code

The Intellectual Property Office of the Philippines and Art Studies Class 281, in cooperation with the U.P. Jorge B. Vargas Museum, invite you to a forum on “Copyright and ‘Copy Left’: Issues and Perspectives on the Enforcement of the Intellectual Property Code to Philippine Visual Arts,” to be held on September 24, 2008, Wednesday at The Lobby, Jorge B. Vargas Museum, University of the Philippines Diliman, Quezon City. This event is open to the public. For inquiries, contact Lai del Rosario at 0916-3763835 or Dino Santos at 0916-4318194.

rain, friends & jane austen

i love a rainy day. syempre coz its malamig masaya my ka hug kaso wala akong ka-hug haha. anyway, its wednesday meaning its schoolday for me in UP. its supposed to be a meeting break for my Art Stud 281 class but we had to meet the consultant from IPO for the forum we're organizing so our class had a meeting with her instead. it was raining very hard that i was wishing there will be a suspension of classes after lunch but there was none. i told becky & che that if the classes will be suspended, i'll meet them in trinoma. i miss these 2 girls along with my old friends way back in elem & high school. i last saw becky & love in my brother's wedding & i've been trying to compromise our schedules so we could meet again. but obviously our schedules are so sabog that we can't find a common time that we're all free. so i did my errand for the class & read a little at the library till my 530 class. we we're dismissed at 8pm. i was a bit sleepy already. the previous night kasi i slept at 8pm but i woke up at 2:30am and i haven't sleep na till i prepared for school. i thought it'll work for me hindi pala coz inaantok ako towards late afternoon.

before i went to bed i watched the vcd hannah lent me. it's an old movie called, the jane austen book club. honestly i haven't read a book by jane austen but i know there are movie adaptations of her novels like pride & prejudice, sense & sensibility & emma. it's a good movie but i think i would have understood it more if i have read her works coz obviously the theme is about her 6 novels and how its actually visible in their own lives & experiences. i got from the movie a quote from an austen book which says, the trick to loving is letting go.

i believe this is true. its much like the quote, if you love someone set him free...blah blah..its hard to push yourself to someone who doesn't care or love you anymore. it keeps your dignity and respect for yourself if you let that person go and have him realize for himself what he's lost. behaving this way actually will make you win him back or will let you completely move on and get over him. its really difficult to let go of someone you love but letting go is not saying that you don't love him anymore. for me its more of like telling him, i love you that much that i want you to be happy.

weddings and something more

last sunday, hannah & rommel (the soon-to-be mr. & mrs. salvania) accompanied me & randy to antipolo for our apprenticeship as wedding coordinators. i was really having jitters coz knowing the clumsy person that i am, i might make the ceremony a disaster. i was thankful that Joy & Rey and the other coordinators were so kind and helpful. we were at the venue 2 hrs. before the wedding ceremony to do the preparations. an hour before it started was the nakakangarag hour. we were going to and fro, fixing this & that, talking to the groom & guests, giving out the flowers etc. it was kind of tiring. buti na lang i wasn't wearing a stiletto or else goodluck sa kalyo. the ceremony went on smoothly. nakakainggit yung couple. we learned that their wedding day is also their 7th yr anniversary as bf & gf. they were really like bestfriends. i got teary eyed when the groom said his vow hehe. the whole thing was really fun. nakakapagod pero masaya. there's also this bonus part where i get to talk with some of the goodlooking guests and those part of the entourage haha. sabi nga ni hannah a wedding is a venue to meet guys. i believe we'll still be coordinating 1 or more wedding pa before kami na mismo ang wedding coordinator in their wedding on nov in bohol. teka my love life's supposed to be taking a backseat muna di ba hehe.well, we never really know when we're gonna fall inlove again:)

one finer day...

thank God it's one of those mornings that i wished so hard to come. i finally woke up without having him as the first person i thought about. its been a week now since he told me about it. i was hurt of course. darn who doesn't! sabi nila if you cry for that person after you broke up that means you love him. i did & maybe i still do. i tried to play cool about it though but we've spent some good times together so it wasn't that easy. it's that phase that i wouldn't want to go through again. that's why i promised myself to take a break for now until that one right person comes along. one thing i realized though about myself now is that i became much stronger in handling these things. of course i still cry. but after one cry thats it life has to move on. i still miss him once in a while but maybe we're not just meant to be together coz it'll just get more complicated. atleast we took a chance again. the best thing to say now i guess is thank you and i wish him well.

don't cry out loud

my mind is so distrated at this time but i've got tons of school work besides my usual work load. but who am i to complain. first and foremost it was my decision to take up masters in UP cause its my ticket to career growth. i always take a full load so i'll be able to finish it early. it wasn't too hard in the first year but now i'm feeling the pressure baby hehe plus i got a scholarship to maintain. hayy enough said. i guess i just really have to start doing everything now before i realize they're all due na pala. talk about cramming again.
talking about distractions, how do you start focusing again after a brokenheart?